Saturday, September 25, 2010
Blogging through my iPhone cause my laptop is down, again. sighs. it's gonna cost my parents more money again. better not bug them with subsidizing my DSLR. ):
6 hours of lecture in a day is really detrimental to my body.
Feeling horrid now. Like half wanting to puke, half headache, aching everywhere as though I'm gonna get fever soon. My nose is dripping as and when it feels like it and I keep alternating between feeling hot and feeling cold. ); who passed me their flu/fever mans! yiyong
Is it you! );
Lousy body.
Whatever happened to my old fitness and flat tummy? Have been neglecting myself for too long until I don't know if I can ever will myself to get back in shape. Haha.. :/
Am so tiredd. I know I need to study. I know I need to. qj best, never reply sms.
It's only the first week of school. Why does it feel like the 15th week alrdy? );
Time to go sleep. shall wake up tmr to study
My corporate finance. Yes I must.
Marketing with Patricia Lui was so fun and she's really engaging and entertaining. Just the right remedy for a sad 330 Friday class.
Ok am bull-ing. Shows that I'm really tired.
わたしわねよおとおもいます。σ(^_^;)
6 hours of lecture in a day is really detrimental to my body.
Feeling horrid now. Like half wanting to puke, half headache, aching everywhere as though I'm gonna get fever soon. My nose is dripping as and when it feels like it and I keep alternating between feeling hot and feeling cold. ); who passed me their flu/fever mans! yiyong
Is it you! );
Lousy body.
Whatever happened to my old fitness and flat tummy? Have been neglecting myself for too long until I don't know if I can ever will myself to get back in shape. Haha.. :/
Am so tiredd. I know I need to study. I know I need to. qj best, never reply sms.
It's only the first week of school. Why does it feel like the 15th week alrdy? );
Time to go sleep. shall wake up tmr to study
My corporate finance. Yes I must.
Marketing with Patricia Lui was so fun and she's really engaging and entertaining. Just the right remedy for a sad 330 Friday class.
Ok am bull-ing. Shows that I'm really tired.
わたしわねよおとおもいます。σ(^_^;)
spin me silly, 3:20 AM.
Friday, September 24, 2010
to keep busy so i wont have time for rubbish thoughts again, that is the goal.
macro is challenging ): i'm lost at page 6. on the contrary, at least i managed to pass my jap test and graduate from jap elementary 1, makes skipping the 2nd half of macro lesson 1 worth it... though i really need to catch up asap. ):
today's gonna be a long long day. need to attend class from 12pm till 630pm! ): oh nos. havent tried 6 hours class straight, doing the 330 class for a friend luh.
went shopping today! havent told mum yet. always end up buying stuffs for my bro and sis instead! everytime w/o fail they'll be in my thoughts. lol. bought cute pill earrings for my little sis, in green (her fav color), and a red cute bear shirt for my bro, (who is into red and cute stuffs).
got myself a dress from max & moore. and a shirt, need to know how to wear it though. wanted to buy a khaki shorts...its really nice! but no size, it only comes in tomorrow!
spent $100 in all, plus all the food today... i think i spent almost $150 from my savings le ): oh well, at least my salary can cover it. phew.
addicted to a facebook new game. pop boom or smth. lol. strategy game! =)
gonna spend some time with family tomorrow. dad's complaining already. have been eating out with friends on mon, tue, thur.
stop the mood swings please please... i'd rather not have rubbish thoughts and mood swings.
this is a rubbish post. need to sleep soon and blog something decent tmr. haha. ):
macro is challenging ): i'm lost at page 6. on the contrary, at least i managed to pass my jap test and graduate from jap elementary 1, makes skipping the 2nd half of macro lesson 1 worth it... though i really need to catch up asap. ):
today's gonna be a long long day. need to attend class from 12pm till 630pm! ): oh nos. havent tried 6 hours class straight, doing the 330 class for a friend luh.
went shopping today! havent told mum yet. always end up buying stuffs for my bro and sis instead! everytime w/o fail they'll be in my thoughts. lol. bought cute pill earrings for my little sis, in green (her fav color), and a red cute bear shirt for my bro, (who is into red and cute stuffs).
got myself a dress from max & moore. and a shirt, need to know how to wear it though. wanted to buy a khaki shorts...its really nice! but no size, it only comes in tomorrow!
spent $100 in all, plus all the food today... i think i spent almost $150 from my savings le ): oh well, at least my salary can cover it. phew.
addicted to a facebook new game. pop boom or smth. lol. strategy game! =)
gonna spend some time with family tomorrow. dad's complaining already. have been eating out with friends on mon, tue, thur.
stop the mood swings please please... i'd rather not have rubbish thoughts and mood swings.
this is a rubbish post. need to sleep soon and blog something decent tmr. haha. ):
spin me silly, 1:21 AM.
Monday, September 20, 2010
school re-commences.
its back to studying, 3 hours per lecture, 4-5 days per week.
it feels like yesterday that we all were anxious and excited about the first week of school, having each other for company during lectures. the whole hwz group was so well, intact. where has everyone gone? there are a few of us left, trying to gather everyone together, anyone in fact...i miss those days.
and it came to my mind.
one year ago, on the first friday of school, while i was walking across the overhead bridge, getting to the busstop to catch a bus home, he called.
out of the blues, he called to chit chat with me and tell me that he fell asleep in class and his faux spectacles fell off. just a simple chit chat, just a simple call, got me overjoyed, got my heart beating faster, got me jumping for joy, for there and then, he was my eyecandy...
i'd never forget the times we had before we got together.
and yes, i'm still trying to get over it, almost half a year after we ended things.
hard as i try, these stupid flashbacks still floods my mind every now and then.
he's moved on, so should i. but somehow i'm still stuck in the past, suffering alone.
i've never thought i'd be the one who'll end up hanging on to the past.
until alas, i am.
i still ask myself, why oh why, did you treat me like a toy, like trash, like dirt, like anything disposable. why oh why.
i've never felt so alone, yet so at peace with myself. for once in my life, i'm not seeking a relationship, for i'm tired. for i need a break. for i've been disillusioned. i've been chasing everyone in my life who are concerned for me, away. cause i dont know if i'd ever be able to reciprocate. i dont want to hurt them the way i've been hurt. the feeling... the feeling... cant be described in words.
stuck a post-it on my mini board.
"On this day of your life, Melissa, We believe God wants you to know that when the night feels very long, remember that a brand new day is just around the corner"
Goodbye, my loved.
its back to studying, 3 hours per lecture, 4-5 days per week.
it feels like yesterday that we all were anxious and excited about the first week of school, having each other for company during lectures. the whole hwz group was so well, intact. where has everyone gone? there are a few of us left, trying to gather everyone together, anyone in fact...i miss those days.
and it came to my mind.
one year ago, on the first friday of school, while i was walking across the overhead bridge, getting to the busstop to catch a bus home, he called.
out of the blues, he called to chit chat with me and tell me that he fell asleep in class and his faux spectacles fell off. just a simple chit chat, just a simple call, got me overjoyed, got my heart beating faster, got me jumping for joy, for there and then, he was my eyecandy...
i'd never forget the times we had before we got together.
and yes, i'm still trying to get over it, almost half a year after we ended things.
hard as i try, these stupid flashbacks still floods my mind every now and then.
he's moved on, so should i. but somehow i'm still stuck in the past, suffering alone.
i've never thought i'd be the one who'll end up hanging on to the past.
until alas, i am.
i still ask myself, why oh why, did you treat me like a toy, like trash, like dirt, like anything disposable. why oh why.
i've never felt so alone, yet so at peace with myself. for once in my life, i'm not seeking a relationship, for i'm tired. for i need a break. for i've been disillusioned. i've been chasing everyone in my life who are concerned for me, away. cause i dont know if i'd ever be able to reciprocate. i dont want to hurt them the way i've been hurt. the feeling... the feeling... cant be described in words.
stuck a post-it on my mini board.
"On this day of your life, Melissa, We believe God wants you to know that when the night feels very long, remember that a brand new day is just around the corner"
Goodbye, my loved.
spin me silly, 2:08 AM.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
rollerblading, cycling, step up 3 with salted popcorn and hawt casts and cool moves, koi AI-YU Passion Fruit bubble tea
a relaxing and tiring day today!
thanks for the company. it was hilarious to see him try to skate. absolutely hilarious. LOL.
i'm glad to have found a chattable friend like him. (:
Windsurfing CCA. to join or not to join? =\
sighs, damn pissed off with my group of friends.
they all agreed and ask me to plan holiday to bintan, now i got the villa, rach say her mum dont let, daryl say see whether floorball wants him for sunig. WTH IS THIS?! then the costs how?! please be more responsible pple! i'm damn bloody pissed to be honest.
SUNBURNT. its been a long long long long long time since i have gotten a sunburnt liddat. feels good to have pretty rosy cheeks (:, but my back hurts! my shoulder hurt! my arms hurt too! dangs...
just had a cockroach treasure hunt in my sister's room -_-" cudnt find it after half an hour. when it has a will to hide, it really hides itself well mans. just please dont let it wander into my room...looks like little sis is gonna come occupy half my bed tonight...
a relaxing and tiring day today!
thanks for the company. it was hilarious to see him try to skate. absolutely hilarious. LOL.
i'm glad to have found a chattable friend like him. (:
Windsurfing CCA. to join or not to join? =\
sighs, damn pissed off with my group of friends.
they all agreed and ask me to plan holiday to bintan, now i got the villa, rach say her mum dont let, daryl say see whether floorball wants him for sunig. WTH IS THIS?! then the costs how?! please be more responsible pple! i'm damn bloody pissed to be honest.
SUNBURNT. its been a long long long long long time since i have gotten a sunburnt liddat. feels good to have pretty rosy cheeks (:, but my back hurts! my shoulder hurt! my arms hurt too! dangs...
just had a cockroach treasure hunt in my sister's room -_-" cudnt find it after half an hour. when it has a will to hide, it really hides itself well mans. just please dont let it wander into my room...looks like little sis is gonna come occupy half my bed tonight...
spin me silly, 1:05 AM.
Friday, August 20, 2010
omg. thanks LIM ZHI HAO.
now that i know its from you, i'll appreciate it more luh!!!
you should have told me from the start! rahhs!
all along i thought its from my ex, so my feelings were like...happy but annoyed...and annoyed and annoyed..thinking why i already made it clear he still send.
Tried verifying it with the mini cards you sent me along with the stress ball pig and sunflower but realized you didnt call me melly. nor know my address...
i think i just poured alot of cold water with my previous blogpost, didnt i.
SORRY! and THANKS! (:
sighs, i think i spoilt it all with my horrible deductions...
i'm sorry, i owe you one.
Thanks for the flowers.
Jiayou with the remaining 7 hours of shift tonight.
when school starts for you, i'll tell you where's nice nearby for a free good meal from mel! haha.
so many things to blog, so jumbled up. alamak. oh well. hahaha. i can only say see la! sms not reliable! i really didnt receive it at all. Lols.
now that i know its from you, i'll appreciate it more luh!!!
you should have told me from the start! rahhs!
all along i thought its from my ex, so my feelings were like...happy but annoyed...and annoyed and annoyed..thinking why i already made it clear he still send.
Tried verifying it with the mini cards you sent me along with the stress ball pig and sunflower but realized you didnt call me melly. nor know my address...
i think i just poured alot of cold water with my previous blogpost, didnt i.
SORRY! and THANKS! (:
sighs, i think i spoilt it all with my horrible deductions...
i'm sorry, i owe you one.
Thanks for the flowers.
Jiayou with the remaining 7 hours of shift tonight.
when school starts for you, i'll tell you where's nice nearby for a free good meal from mel! haha.
so many things to blog, so jumbled up. alamak. oh well. hahaha. i can only say see la! sms not reliable! i really didnt receive it at all. Lols.
spin me silly, 12:52 AM.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
its been a really long time since i've blogged...
didnt blog through my whole horrid depression experience phrase, but am thankful for all who stood by me and gave me a hand...if not who knows where i'd be now? in IMH maybe?
life's getting better these past 5 days that i've started working in the Bank of Singapore. to be honest, i actually like my job...compared to the previous one as ACE insurance. (even though my colleagues there are all nice people). This one, the atmosphere, the surroundings, the environment...everything is more vibrant to me. The job scope as well...I think i still love the banking environment more. and those with regards to events planning.
as for my dating life, well...i guess a few people have asked me out, but i dont think i'm ready to commit to any relationship at this point in time. i just feel, tired and empty and not ready to accept anybody.
the strangest part was receiving a bouquet of 12 roses and 5 gerbera and lavenders today! apparently its from an unknown sender, he/she didnt leave their name...how did he/she know my address?! seriously...i dont know whether to be happy or annoyed. its driving me crazy that i dont even know anyone possible who'd send it.
To: Melly~ (seriously, who calls me melly?? someone close??)
"you may just be one of the many inevitable reasons that make life beautiful"
GOSH.
i should just call FarEastFlora and demand for the sender's details.zzz
went out for buffet dinner at ban heng with madd and her boyfriend eric today, and madeline invited QJ...cause she made me ask my friend along so i wont be lonely. at first it was weird max cause QJ didnt know them both. just come to pei me only, cause scared i extra. but QJ warmed up i guess. stupid madd and her evil pairing me up plan! RAHHH. just you wait madd, sweet revenge coming right up uh! on fb! hmph.
With regards to QJ, i hope he wont get hurt, because i dont know if i'll ever be open to the idea of love again.
life's slowly getting back to normal. i hope i'll never have to hit rock bottom with depression and anxiety again...i'm not really back to my old bubbly self yet, but am glad to say i'm on the route to recovery (:
"On this day, God wants you to know ... that you are blessed. You may think you have challenges, but you have so many blessings. Sometimes it takes only a moment of conscious effort to recognize those blessings. Once you focus on the gifts instead of the problems, your whole perspective will change and you will see blessings everywhere." (:
Thanks God. your quotes made me see the positive side of life.
be strong girl. be strong. be there for others like you've always been. this time, remember to be there for yourself too.
karadesu, the only exception.
didnt blog through my whole horrid depression experience phrase, but am thankful for all who stood by me and gave me a hand...if not who knows where i'd be now? in IMH maybe?
life's getting better these past 5 days that i've started working in the Bank of Singapore. to be honest, i actually like my job...compared to the previous one as ACE insurance. (even though my colleagues there are all nice people). This one, the atmosphere, the surroundings, the environment...everything is more vibrant to me. The job scope as well...I think i still love the banking environment more. and those with regards to events planning.
as for my dating life, well...i guess a few people have asked me out, but i dont think i'm ready to commit to any relationship at this point in time. i just feel, tired and empty and not ready to accept anybody.
the strangest part was receiving a bouquet of 12 roses and 5 gerbera and lavenders today! apparently its from an unknown sender, he/she didnt leave their name...how did he/she know my address?! seriously...i dont know whether to be happy or annoyed. its driving me crazy that i dont even know anyone possible who'd send it.
To: Melly~ (seriously, who calls me melly?? someone close??)
"you may just be one of the many inevitable reasons that make life beautiful"
GOSH.
i should just call FarEastFlora and demand for the sender's details.zzz
went out for buffet dinner at ban heng with madd and her boyfriend eric today, and madeline invited QJ...cause she made me ask my friend along so i wont be lonely. at first it was weird max cause QJ didnt know them both. just come to pei me only, cause scared i extra. but QJ warmed up i guess. stupid madd and her evil pairing me up plan! RAHHH. just you wait madd, sweet revenge coming right up uh! on fb! hmph.
With regards to QJ, i hope he wont get hurt, because i dont know if i'll ever be open to the idea of love again.
life's slowly getting back to normal. i hope i'll never have to hit rock bottom with depression and anxiety again...i'm not really back to my old bubbly self yet, but am glad to say i'm on the route to recovery (:
"On this day, God wants you to know ... that you are blessed. You may think you have challenges, but you have so many blessings. Sometimes it takes only a moment of conscious effort to recognize those blessings. Once you focus on the gifts instead of the problems, your whole perspective will change and you will see blessings everywhere." (:
Thanks God. your quotes made me see the positive side of life.
be strong girl. be strong. be there for others like you've always been. this time, remember to be there for yourself too.
karadesu, the only exception.
spin me silly, 12:22 AM.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
getting the flu and a slight fever i think.
the thoughts, the fears, wouldnt stop going on and on in my head. i feel so upset, much as i try to be cheerful again.
I dont want my parents to worry, yet somehow no matter how hard i try, i'm still finding it hard to carry on with life after that incident.
ming, thanks so much for being here to cheer me up when i need cheering up most.
weiquan, thanks for the motivational video.
kenny, thanks for just being a friend.
vincent kor kor, thanks, i'm blessed to have a brother who actually cares what i'm going through..even though we havent met up in years. thanks for your daily messages for me to try and sleep without fears.
would have been worse off without you guys here to support me.
thank you mum and dad for trying to be here for me too. i love you both.
one thing i've learnt is to be glad that u're loved, and to treasure the ones we love.
and its times like these when you know who your real friends are, and i'm glad.
staring at the mini slowglobe kath gave me. stoning in front of it.
i think i owned the jap test today. =\ feels abit of a sense of achievement for once. jiayou mel. your friends and family are here to help you get through this depressing period. jiayou..
oh dear. i forgot to water the cactuses i bought and intend to give my colleagues this friday.. >.<
mel, be happy. be happy..
the thoughts, the fears, wouldnt stop going on and on in my head. i feel so upset, much as i try to be cheerful again.
I dont want my parents to worry, yet somehow no matter how hard i try, i'm still finding it hard to carry on with life after that incident.
ming, thanks so much for being here to cheer me up when i need cheering up most.
weiquan, thanks for the motivational video.
kenny, thanks for just being a friend.
vincent kor kor, thanks, i'm blessed to have a brother who actually cares what i'm going through..even though we havent met up in years. thanks for your daily messages for me to try and sleep without fears.
would have been worse off without you guys here to support me.
thank you mum and dad for trying to be here for me too. i love you both.
one thing i've learnt is to be glad that u're loved, and to treasure the ones we love.
and its times like these when you know who your real friends are, and i'm glad.
staring at the mini slowglobe kath gave me. stoning in front of it.
i think i owned the jap test today. =\ feels abit of a sense of achievement for once. jiayou mel. your friends and family are here to help you get through this depressing period. jiayou..
oh dear. i forgot to water the cactuses i bought and intend to give my colleagues this friday.. >.<
mel, be happy. be happy..
spin me silly, 1:06 AM.
