Saturday, March 13, 2010
b means alot to me. he really does. i only wish he'll stop taking me for granted. someone to rant at when he's angry or stressed. someone he can talk to, share his dreams and daily happenings with, but not someone he'll pay extra extra attention to when she's feeling upset or moody. i always cheer him up when he's upset or moody, but who's here to cheer me up when im sad? i wish he'll be the one here for me.
cant sleep. i appear offline, so that i can avoid things. but yet i keep taking note of his status. busy, available, busy, available. he has to coach at 9am tomorrow. i'm worried he wont have enough rest. i so wanna call him, so wanna hug him and tell him to go sleep, but yet i dont want to be the one always there for him and being taken for granted and ranted at for lame reasons again. i really dont. sigh. this is so confusing.
dear god, please just make him tired and make him fall asleep with sweetdreams, though just enough not for him to be late for coaching class tomorrow.
i guess i should go get some rest too. my eyes. puffy puff le.
cant sleep. i appear offline, so that i can avoid things. but yet i keep taking note of his status. busy, available, busy, available. he has to coach at 9am tomorrow. i'm worried he wont have enough rest. i so wanna call him, so wanna hug him and tell him to go sleep, but yet i dont want to be the one always there for him and being taken for granted and ranted at for lame reasons again. i really dont. sigh. this is so confusing.
dear god, please just make him tired and make him fall asleep with sweetdreams, though just enough not for him to be late for coaching class tomorrow.
i guess i should go get some rest too. my eyes. puffy puff le.
spin me silly, 3:03 AM.
