Saturday, March 13, 2010
the day started out great, with me meeting kath at 1pm to go for the IT show. ate shokudo at raffles city then headed down to the fair at suntec. spilled my bubble tea in shokudo. that was the start of a bad day.
bought an iphone screen protector for b at the fair, knowing he needs one. that was the only thing i bought. i didnt even think of myself. then kath and i walked around and chatted about our lives. filling each other in whats been going on the past few months. and we went to hunt for mugging places in harborfront centre. its time to study.
after which, i headed to school to find b, grace, daryl and daryl's friends to l4d2. the day went by fine, till at the end of lan session, b accused me of being fierce to him and treating the game seriously just cause he killed me in the game and i sulked and stared at him. i was just joking with the stare.. then he left me to walk with grace and walked far far ahead up the dimly lit roads to the car. yeah, he left me behind, without ever turning back once. is this the guy i've been loving the past few months? why does he always throw tantrums at me? it hurts so bad i came home to cry. the thing i really hate most, is being left behind. and i see him walk off again...i really feel..heartbroken. the feeling sucks to the core. the more i love, the more it hurts!
it's days like these that i hate myself for loving again. its the days like these that makes me wanna give up, turn into a nun, or just turn heartless and emotionless. maybe then i wont subject myself to tears and hurt. maybe. just maybe.
bought an iphone screen protector for b at the fair, knowing he needs one. that was the only thing i bought. i didnt even think of myself. then kath and i walked around and chatted about our lives. filling each other in whats been going on the past few months. and we went to hunt for mugging places in harborfront centre. its time to study.
after which, i headed to school to find b, grace, daryl and daryl's friends to l4d2. the day went by fine, till at the end of lan session, b accused me of being fierce to him and treating the game seriously just cause he killed me in the game and i sulked and stared at him. i was just joking with the stare.. then he left me to walk with grace and walked far far ahead up the dimly lit roads to the car. yeah, he left me behind, without ever turning back once. is this the guy i've been loving the past few months? why does he always throw tantrums at me? it hurts so bad i came home to cry. the thing i really hate most, is being left behind. and i see him walk off again...i really feel..heartbroken. the feeling sucks to the core. the more i love, the more it hurts!
it's days like these that i hate myself for loving again. its the days like these that makes me wanna give up, turn into a nun, or just turn heartless and emotionless. maybe then i wont subject myself to tears and hurt. maybe. just maybe.
spin me silly, 12:35 AM.
