Wednesday, March 24, 2010
my heart stopped. seeing him getting outta his car and running after me to send me up, i was really happy. but what happened next made my heart stopped for a moment.
b ran after me, caught me when i got into the lift, so i gave him a hug. however, when the lift door closed, he suddenly told me "i'm going to faint." and i was like "huh? serious? dont play a fool!" and he said "i'm not joking, i'm really going to..." and then before he could complete his sentence, he slipped outta my arms and onto the floor, sprawled out and twitched for what seemed like 10-15 seconds? i could almost sworn my heart stopped.
when i saw him collapse onto my lift floor, it dawned on me he wasnt kidding, and he was having convulsions.
the fear inside me that triggered at that very sight of him collapsing, the fear of losing someone i love, its too scary. i was shaking from the fear too. but i hurried to try and hold him up while still reeling from the shock. he regained consciousness and pulled himself up with my help.
baby's lips had 3 cuts and were bleeding and he was in a daze. stupid lift, why did it have to be so hard. if only it's carpeted.
my heart's aching from the worry. its then i know i dont ever wanna lose him! EVER. after exams, i'm gonna accompany him to the doc. its to buy the reassurance that he's fine, or maybe just due to some inability of his body to adjust his blood pressure from sitting to running instantly.
why didnt i catch hold of him in time? why did i let him slip off and get cuts on his lips? I CANNOT BE SUCH A WEAKLING! i wanna get stronger. i wanna be stronger. i wanna be there to support b ah. if i cant even do that, i dont deserve to be his gf.
poa chpt 7, excericse 8, chpt 8 and half of excercise 9 done today. tmr is stats chi-square, econs macro tutorial 5, and stats normal distribution. at the very least.
debating whether to buy herbal tea and bring to b at newton tmr after his test, then head to school. he still gotta coach in the morning. sigh.
dear God, i know i seldom pray or speak to you except on occasions, nor am i part of the faith, but now i'm praying to you, please let b be fine. please do not let anything happen to him. please watch over him. it means alot to me. i'll be very grateful. thanks. amen.
b ran after me, caught me when i got into the lift, so i gave him a hug. however, when the lift door closed, he suddenly told me "i'm going to faint." and i was like "huh? serious? dont play a fool!" and he said "i'm not joking, i'm really going to..." and then before he could complete his sentence, he slipped outta my arms and onto the floor, sprawled out and twitched for what seemed like 10-15 seconds? i could almost sworn my heart stopped.
when i saw him collapse onto my lift floor, it dawned on me he wasnt kidding, and he was having convulsions.
the fear inside me that triggered at that very sight of him collapsing, the fear of losing someone i love, its too scary. i was shaking from the fear too. but i hurried to try and hold him up while still reeling from the shock. he regained consciousness and pulled himself up with my help.
baby's lips had 3 cuts and were bleeding and he was in a daze. stupid lift, why did it have to be so hard. if only it's carpeted.
my heart's aching from the worry. its then i know i dont ever wanna lose him! EVER. after exams, i'm gonna accompany him to the doc. its to buy the reassurance that he's fine, or maybe just due to some inability of his body to adjust his blood pressure from sitting to running instantly.
why didnt i catch hold of him in time? why did i let him slip off and get cuts on his lips? I CANNOT BE SUCH A WEAKLING! i wanna get stronger. i wanna be stronger. i wanna be there to support b ah. if i cant even do that, i dont deserve to be his gf.
poa chpt 7, excericse 8, chpt 8 and half of excercise 9 done today. tmr is stats chi-square, econs macro tutorial 5, and stats normal distribution. at the very least.
debating whether to buy herbal tea and bring to b at newton tmr after his test, then head to school. he still gotta coach in the morning. sigh.
dear God, i know i seldom pray or speak to you except on occasions, nor am i part of the faith, but now i'm praying to you, please let b be fine. please do not let anything happen to him. please watch over him. it means alot to me. i'll be very grateful. thanks. amen.
spin me silly, 11:22 PM.
