Friday, March 19, 2010
trust. one short word, it takes years to build, yet only a minute to break. trust. something that doesnt come naturally. trust. is something my heart must learn.
how can we trust?
trusting people is a scary thing. to trust is to put ourselves in vulnerable positions, knowing it might end up both ways, happy to have trusted or, utterly betrayed. So far, i've only been betrayed, so it takes alot for me to believe in others again, but i'm trying, i'm trying.
i can only calm my rubbish thoughts at times by thinking positive and saying, whatever will be, will be.
just tell me you love me.
thats all it takes to calm my fears and stupid thoughts at times.
sometimes, thats all it takes.
its friday again. going to sch at 9am to mug. didnt get to talk to him at all yesterday, except when he called me with jennifer's hp to tell me his hp batt died. other than that, he didnt call me. so sad ): sigh. i do hope he's really asleep, cause i dont wanna wait anymore. am heading to bed too.
oyasumi.
how can we trust?
trusting people is a scary thing. to trust is to put ourselves in vulnerable positions, knowing it might end up both ways, happy to have trusted or, utterly betrayed. So far, i've only been betrayed, so it takes alot for me to believe in others again, but i'm trying, i'm trying.
i can only calm my rubbish thoughts at times by thinking positive and saying, whatever will be, will be.
just tell me you love me.
thats all it takes to calm my fears and stupid thoughts at times.
sometimes, thats all it takes.
its friday again. going to sch at 9am to mug. didnt get to talk to him at all yesterday, except when he called me with jennifer's hp to tell me his hp batt died. other than that, he didnt call me. so sad ): sigh. i do hope he's really asleep, cause i dont wanna wait anymore. am heading to bed too.
oyasumi.
spin me silly, 1:33 AM.
