Saturday, April 17, 2010
i cant stop crying, especially when i'm alone in my room now.
the tears just come free falling, uncontrollable.
b and i, broke up, after we decided that what we need from each other is not what each other can give to us..it was so saddening. i saw b cry for the first time too. i'm gonna miss him.
much as i hate to admit it, i still love him. its just that, love really aint just enough. i'm sure he'll move on fine, without me.cause he's well, more focused on his own.
stop my fking tears please. i am sick and tired of myself being liddat. why am i such a weakling? trying to put up a brave front and act all happy and high and smiley in front of them. once i got out of the lan shop, all i could do is stare into space while waiting for my dad, and once i got into the car, i started bawling. non stop. till now. even as i had dinner. wth is wrong with me. why am i such a weakling. why why why.
b was the one who decided to end everything and not drag it on..not even a cooloff period. i'm really sad to lose him, but there's really nothing i can do to change things. i should be looking forward and staring the 18 days to exam in the face. i need to concentrate. i need to. for myself. this time for myself. not for anyone else.
i'm really very upset. my eyes cannot take the tears already.
somebody, get me outta my misery. i'd do anything to be happy again. anything.
the tears just come free falling, uncontrollable.
b and i, broke up, after we decided that what we need from each other is not what each other can give to us..it was so saddening. i saw b cry for the first time too. i'm gonna miss him.
much as i hate to admit it, i still love him. its just that, love really aint just enough. i'm sure he'll move on fine, without me.cause he's well, more focused on his own.
stop my fking tears please. i am sick and tired of myself being liddat. why am i such a weakling? trying to put up a brave front and act all happy and high and smiley in front of them. once i got out of the lan shop, all i could do is stare into space while waiting for my dad, and once i got into the car, i started bawling. non stop. till now. even as i had dinner. wth is wrong with me. why am i such a weakling. why why why.
b was the one who decided to end everything and not drag it on..not even a cooloff period. i'm really sad to lose him, but there's really nothing i can do to change things. i should be looking forward and staring the 18 days to exam in the face. i need to concentrate. i need to. for myself. this time for myself. not for anyone else.
i'm really very upset. my eyes cannot take the tears already.
somebody, get me outta my misery. i'd do anything to be happy again. anything.
spin me silly, 1:20 AM.
