Friday, May 28, 2010
i remebered how you kissed me goodnight, blanketed me and hugged me to sleep.
that's one of the only reasons i can comfort myself with and stop asking myself if i was just a toy to you since we broke up.
wonder if it should be happy or really sad memories, cause i feel my mind trying to block everything out, not wanting to relief the nostalgic yet sad sad feelings again. i need time away, time to heal, but i'm doubting myself. how long do i need? its been almost 2 months but it seems to me like it was just yesterday that we broke up. 1 year, 2 years? will i ever get over him? he still occupies my thoughts, as much as i dont want to or hate it. like why should someone who'll never be mine, keep occupying my heart and my thoughts?! its just really frustrating and upsetting to me.
"have i told you lately...i still.."
crap. so my resolve is just so weak.
now that i'm not with him, my parents dont even lemme stay out past midnight anymore. what the hell.
our ics prawning session got cancelled today thanks to the crowd at the prawning area. z Z z. so we went to wee teck's house to mahjong from 9+pm till 1am. got a hell lot of kp-ing and screaming from the phone from my dad. the fact that i informed them myself that i was going to be home late, is already enough. why the eff-ing scream at me in front of my friends who can totally hear it through the phone?! not embarassing?! all my girl friends who are 20 years old, DONT EVEN have their parents calling them at 11+ to demand them home or scold them. what is this man?! i'm freaking 22! by 8 years i would be married and stuff like that, by then do i still need to report full details everyday??
won $11 from mahjong with them today. just lucky only.
GSS officially begins. shoppers, ladies, get your legs ready.
that's one of the only reasons i can comfort myself with and stop asking myself if i was just a toy to you since we broke up.
wonder if it should be happy or really sad memories, cause i feel my mind trying to block everything out, not wanting to relief the nostalgic yet sad sad feelings again. i need time away, time to heal, but i'm doubting myself. how long do i need? its been almost 2 months but it seems to me like it was just yesterday that we broke up. 1 year, 2 years? will i ever get over him? he still occupies my thoughts, as much as i dont want to or hate it. like why should someone who'll never be mine, keep occupying my heart and my thoughts?! its just really frustrating and upsetting to me.
"have i told you lately...i still.."
crap. so my resolve is just so weak.
now that i'm not with him, my parents dont even lemme stay out past midnight anymore. what the hell.
our ics prawning session got cancelled today thanks to the crowd at the prawning area. z Z z. so we went to wee teck's house to mahjong from 9+pm till 1am. got a hell lot of kp-ing and screaming from the phone from my dad. the fact that i informed them myself that i was going to be home late, is already enough. why the eff-ing scream at me in front of my friends who can totally hear it through the phone?! not embarassing?! all my girl friends who are 20 years old, DONT EVEN have their parents calling them at 11+ to demand them home or scold them. what is this man?! i'm freaking 22! by 8 years i would be married and stuff like that, by then do i still need to report full details everyday??
won $11 from mahjong with them today. just lucky only.
GSS officially begins. shoppers, ladies, get your legs ready.
spin me silly, 2:14 AM.
